Confession is good for the soul....

Or so they say.

And here today is mine.

As you can see there is a change in the name and look of my blog. I thought it was time since I don't feel that the original title reflected who I have become. I suppose there is no way of ever stopping my title of "Mother to the World." It is part of my make-up and partially what helped facilitate this change.

Over the past two years my life has been in constant upheaval. From jobs to the move and a myriad of junk in between, things have not been not so hot. Because of this I had to stop and take a good look at who I am, and what it is that really want to do in this life, and that is help others.

I loved being a teacher. In fact, I am damn good at it, but I am also good at writing and storytelling. I used to think there was something wrong with me. Why was it I could be good at things and never really get to do them? I would also think something was wrong because I enjoyed doing so many things.

I searched and searched for an answer. Then I found a book that spoke of people with Renaissance Souls and how those who have one, seem unfocused because they are doing so many things at one time. I thought Eureka! There is nothing wrong with me, I am just a Renaissance Soul.

I admitted this to myself. That I am, in fact, a Renaissance Soul  (thus the title change.) I will tell you, it is not the easiest of things to be especially in a family of practical people. It also isn't easy when you know there is another part of you needing to be set free, and it is the hardest part to admit to.

For too long I have denied a part of myself and a part of who I am. I didn't want people to think I was any stranger than I already was and I didn't want anyone to hold it against my husband. (Bless his heart for putting up with me.) So here today I confess to all: I am an intuitive or psychic or sensitive. Whatever you wish to call it. I am also a certified Reiki healer.

Whew, you really don't know how hard it was for me to say that. This is a deep part of who I am and one that, until now, I was too scared to share. I don't plan on attacking people in parking lots or grocery stores like some psychics that I have seen. Although, there has been an occasional waiter that may have been accosted by me.

But I am starting to do readings for people on a professional level. (Check out the tabs at top.) I am still writing. Burdens of a Saint is finished and will be out soon. I am also working on starting back teaching voice. I just feel that after 20 plus years, it is time to be who I was intended to be.

Blessings and light to all!
J-

Cause you gotta have faith

I have been reading a great deal about faith lately. I am sure it has to do with the changes I want to make in my life. I imagine it feels a lot like staring off the edge of the Grand Canyon. Since I am terrified of heights, it would probably scare the snot out of me, and yet, I would be excited to see one of nature’s greatest wonders.

That is how I feel now. Scared and excited to stand here, on the edge of my own Grand Canyon, arms outstretched, ready to take the plunge. And who knows you might feel like you are in the same place. This is the time when you and I need faith the most.

Faith is what carries us through and sustains us. When there is an absence of faith there is fear and, more than likely, self-doubt. When it comes to fear I cannot help but think of the book (or movie for those who do not read Sci-Fi) Dune and a quote by the Kwisatz Hederach, “fear is the mind killer.”

I/We allow fear to have a great amount of control in our lives. Think of the fight or flight response. We allow it to hold us in place, make us ill or make us mute as in stage fright. Fear can come from anywhere. My fear comes from two places. The first being: how do I know if this change is a good one and the second being: what if I’m wrong and make a fool of myself?

According to my Spirit Guide, if what I feel in my heart is truly my calling, then a way will be made. People and opportunities will come into my life when the time is right. I must have faith. I will tell you it’s already happening. Some wonderful and knowledgeable people have been put in my path and I begin taking Level One Reiki Classes next week. Score one for my Spirit Guide. I am pretty sure he is keeping track.